In the Middle

I was out in a petrifying broad space. Full of lanterns of reminders telling me how veggies make lives longer. Everywhere you’ll see green. From fruitful bearing trees to a simpler pine tree which is a stranger to me for I am living in a normal temperature environment. Life seems unbearable until this point for I cannot accept the fact that I am in this new life with long forgotten infrastructures and the like. Evidently, I already finished 53 units with the course BS Nursing in this distinctive place-Mountain View College (Mindanao). I grew up in Luzon so beyond doubt, I don’t have any idea what’s in this very place, an Adventist school located in a hilltop and speaking of which, it’s literally into the mountains! Almost a year ago, I was out in the metro to meet and enjoy company of my “friends”. Obviously, I consider them to be part of my life because basically I have no other choice. Some of them are my friends since grade school, so it is undeniably a fact that I should adjust and eventually accept them. Sometimes I felt my spleen aches whenever I am with them. They actually regard themselves as the “high-society class” people among the schools in Cavite which is truthfully a fib but there was really a someone in the middle of them who changed my life and my perception. She played a major role or let us say, God used her as an instrument to make me what I am today. She is Pauleen Genieve Benosa Yutuc. My “bestest friend” since I was in 4th grade. I admit that I am guilty of her early death. I accused her myself for being a deviant in our circle of friends but I was not aware that it would yield a regretful ending. Of course I didn’t take her life instead, I killed her inner soul. I was ruthless for being a pretending friend of hers. My conscience still bugs me up to this moment. I frequently dreamt and think about her. I’m certain that I would carry this cross for a lifetime but I can’t fully take this burden on my own that’s why I was redeemed and well taken care of my savior-Jesus Christ. As an apparent result, I am studying in a school inspired completely and dominated by religious aspects. “Shine on till Jesus Comes” , an exceptional statement where no one can ever put even a period out of it.